Why a blog?

So, why am I starting a blog? Who would want to document all the sucky feelings and happenings that go along with losing pregnancy after pregnancy? Well, it's not that I want to rehash the emotions every time I sit down to type, but not doing so isn't exactly going to make a difference on how I'm dealing either. There are two main reasons that I can justify for now. First, one day, this "journey" will make sense and I may actually want to be able to "go back" and remember, reflect, whatever. Secondly, a Google search on miscarriage brings up thousands of sites that lead you to medical statistics, research, facts, yadda yadda. Ask anyone who's experienced miscarriage and they'll tell you all that crap is just crap when you feel like crap. Reading the whys and hows just left me feeling even more frustrated, irritated, and hurt. Was there anyone, anything out there that could validate what I was feeling? Yes and no. There are quite a few blogs already that do a pretty nice job of what I hope to do, too. This "idea" was laid upon my heart, and there's really no better reason to do something unless it's in your heart anyway. So, with that, a few disclaimers: 


1. I am not a nurse, doctor, or anyone who has any idea what she's talking about when it comes to the medical/scientific aspect of pregnancy and miscarriage. All I can offer is what I've taken from my doctors. 


2. Love it or hate it, I don't really care. But either way, keep your comments civil and appropriate. I'm not really worried about being offended, but someone who's in an unstable, emotional place might really go all psycho on you if you say something mean. So, just don't be mean. 


3. Now, to be a total hypocrite...I can be mean! No, just kidding. I'm not a mean person, I'm actually a very positive person who still loves life and lives it with passion. But what I can tell you is that the excess baggage of miscarriage can cause some pretty deep, many times negative emotions. The purpose of writing what I write is to help someone out there feel that she isn't alone, and what she's feeling is "okay," and feeling all "I hate the world" doesn't make her a bad person. 


4. Don't feel bad for me. I'm not blogging about miscarriage because I want you to feel bad for me and pity my situation. I have a support system bigger than big and best friends and family who love me beyond measure. So, thank you for your genuine care, concern, and prayer in advance. 


I know I won't be able to post daily, maybe even weekly. My goal is to at least update a few times a month. Then again, I may find that this was all nothing more than a dumb idea and totally scratch the whole thing.